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Feeding the Dark Dragon within

Thursday, December 23rd 2004 1:08 AM

I wrote this in response to the pain many feel at being alone at holiday times and when Depression grabs hold and wont let go....

Please take it in and hold it in your heart, its just another tool in our arsenal of light! If you repost it somewhere I only ask you do not change a word of it, give me credit and maybe a link to the website so others can also find things they might need.

With that said here it is as it was first posted on my delphi site ........
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On another subject from the last one, there is a tendency at this time of year to go wild at feeding the "Dark Dragon" within so that it raises its usually under control head and takes big gouges away at your heart and soul. Instead of stopping it and taming it and forcing it to rest once more, we tease it, and inflame it and even add to its wrath at ourselves until it leaves us bloodied, tired and a feeling of worthlessness and hopelessness. There is nothing worse than a life with no hope…nothing..

What in the world am I talking about you ask??? How would do this, who would allow this? YOU would!!!. Those of us (and I fear we all do) who sit and think back on your life, who look 10-20 or even 40 or more years back and flail away at yourself for all you HAVE NOT done or gotten or achieved in your life. You start ticking off all the so called failure that you have had, all the things you didn’t do as you had expected to. You compare your life to so and so and your material possessions to those of so and so and your fame or success or all the things that make you "short" in life.

You spiral downward further and further, the Dark Dragon inside feeding off your pain and fear and depression. You continue not just for one session but for days, weeks and months you spiral falling further and further in the lair of the Dragon as it eats away at your souls and your spirit. Words like Merry Christmas and Seasons greetings are like salt in an open wound, ideas of gifts and love and caring for each other are translated into your not having a spouse or a family or a group of friends, and now you say I probably never will .

Sentiments that bring humanity together at this time only serve to show you how far apart you are, how unloved you feel and how much of a misfit you think you have always been and the Dark Dragon speaks in your ear saying "And will always be, no matter what!" A rush of pain sweeps over you at these words as you accept this realization and once more the Dark Dragon is made high and powerful and reaches ecstasy from your pain as it eats away at you and all that you are. You continue to feed it, you continue to accept what it says and you fall away….

BUT what if….what if this year when it starts instead of feeding it, you swim to the top. Instead of thinking on all you haven't done in the last 10-20- 30 or 40 or more years what if you take paper and pen and write all the amazing things you have done. All the discoveries in life that surprised you and brought you joy and happiness. All the experiences that meant something to you, all the awards and kind words or actions that brought a tear to your eyes, all the things in life that brought you hope, happiness and renewal of spirit.

No one needs to read it, no one needs to see it. It can be something as simple as I have found strawberry ice cream make me think of the pony rides when I was 10 with grandpa, or I remember the way I felt, such strength and victory when I finally walked away from Paul after he hit me the last time, or I found a friend that made me feel cared about and interesting (whether this friendship lasted or not you felt that for a time.)

These are ways to starve the Dark Dragon, These are ways to actually see your progress and see your life time line, to access your victories and what is truly important to you. These are ways to renew that spirit within and to finally not feel like the misfit, looking through the windows but never being invited inside with the others. This gives you the ability to move forward into the next year with the Dark Dragon left sleeping and the ability to say "Merry Christmas" with all the magick the season entails and mean it, not feeling hollow and empty.

So friend this year before the Dark Dragon scars your body, soul and mind take control, refresh your power and see what a really wonderful creation you are…Don’t feed the Dark Dragon within its not a ritual that needs to be done every year…you get no extra points in the universe for abusing yourself …So keep hope and love alive in your life and treat yourself with care and love so that you can help others who are busy feeding their own dark Dragons.

Fighter of the Dark Dragons within the World

Lady Wolfen Mists

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